Man! Life is good! Just like it is.
I don't think I've ever felt as liberated in this world, as I do right now. I am becoming more and more aware of the many different types of brainwashing that I have undergone in my life and am working to undo the damage. My whole perspective on everything is changing due to a book (Awareness by Anthony DeMello) I read last week, and have reread since. I will rant and rave about it to anyone who will listen.
Due to my new revelations, I have started writing new songs. I was having a creative drought for a long time and started doubting whether I was actually any good at songwriting. Honestly, does it matter? I love doing it. Who's the judge of whether it's good or not? The minute I didn't care anymore (about other people's thoughts and my own brainwash), is when it just started happening naturally. And fyi, these are not pretty songs. Life is not "pretty", even though in the earlier paragraph I said it was good. In my opinion, I would be manipulating both myself and you if I just made pretty songs. If I write about life and myself honestly, it is bound to be both fucked up and beautiful at the same time.
"Fucked up and Beautiful" is a great album title. And as a songwriter myself, I agree that you have to please yourself first and hope for the best outside of that. OK, maybe reconsider the album title... ;)
ReplyDeleteIt's the tension between the bad moments and the good ones that make the life so interesting. To be able to see beauty in the mids of suffering and pain is a great gift. To be able to bring beauty and grace in the mids of suffering and pain is even greater gift. May psalm. 23 lift you when you feel drowned in the darkness.
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